The leaves are falling fast here the past couple of weeks, as the trees in our backyard prepare for a different season. I wonder if the colors are changing for you in the Midwest. You’ve talked of heading to a pumpkin patch with friends this weekend, and I’m jealous. I feel as if we’ve been robbed of the beauty of fall in the Northwest this year with the freak September snow storm and rainy, windy October days.
But so much more than the season has changed for our family since your departure for college. We talk to you over Facetime instead of over the dinner table. The people you share your meals and bathroom and TV time with aren’t your siblings anymore. We have different schedules in different time zones.
And that’s okay.
We knew your transition to college would bring about change. And you’ve navigated these past few months with such courage and class. You’ve secured a job and joined clubs and put yourself out there to build friendships. You’ve embarked on road trips and spent special time with your grandparents. You’ve discovered that football games can be fun and established yourself in a faith community and taken advantage of opportunities to travel.
And I see you are doing more than okay.
Saying I’m proud of you doesn’t quite capture all the emotions in my heart. I’m inspired by you. As you know, your momma has not always had a great relationship with change. It’s been a trigger (not the cause, let me make that clear) of anxiety and worry in my life. Sure, there have been tears and moments of loneliness for both of us along the way. And there will be more. But I’m learning through your eyes of all the benefits and blessings that are brought about by change.
And I’m confident we’re both going to be okay.
Be assured of this, though, you are missed. We miss your smile and your passion to do family activities, as well as your role as peacemaker in our home. I miss talking about books you’re reading for school and snuggling on the couch for viewings of “This Is Us.” Your sister misses rockin’ out during your car rides to school in the morning. Your dad misses talking current events and sharing pizza and movies on Friday nights. Your brother misses sharing the latest memes when you pick him up from school in Macky-Boi (his exact words and spelling).
Even though your absence is deeply felt, let me affirm you in something that I need to be reminded of daily… Change is okay.
It’s okay to become a different person than you were before leaving for college.
It’s okay to take tough classes and be challenged and stretched and not get all As.
It’s okay to change your mind or political party or position on issues.
It’s okay to make friends from all walks of life and embrace them for their uniqueness.
It’s okay to spend some money on travel and making memories and bringing joy to others.
It’s okay to love with your whole heart, even if it means the chance it might break.
It’s okay to let the tears flow as you figure out how to make this transition to adulthood.
It’s okay to wrestle with your faith and ask questions and have doubts.
It’s okay to connect to God in different ways than your parents or your peers.
It’s okay to evolve into the person you were uniquely created to be.
Actually it’s more than okay. A positive attitude toward change is essential to your health and growth as an individual. It means you’re awake and alive and paying attention to how God is working in the world and people around you.
And about those trees in the yard that are losing their leaves – they are changing for sure. And they’re going to be okay. Their roots go deep in familiar soil, grounded by a loving Creator, always waiting to welcome you home.